Borderline love is a tough topic.

I never thought i was that intense. The way i love is not the way everyone else love.
BPD – Borderline Personality Disorder. It’s a personality disorder. It is altering the personality. I never saw myself acting borderline until i got diagnosed. I was in denial. Now looking back, i can see clear and i understand that i am not the silent girl i thought i was. I can be loud. I can be very intense. I confronted myself, it made me feel complete. I was finally facing past memories and knowing why it went south all the time. I was being borderline. I was fighting my own demons. I let them touch my skin so they burned it, now i have scars on my body.

I love like there’s no tomorrow. My love is intense, it’s burning and raging. I only see one soul and i’m all eyes on them, i can’t see anything else. I build my own world around this soul. I let it invade my brain and i try again, i jump with my eyes closed. Holding hands, i let it live. Everyday my pupils getting rounder and bigger, just thinking about it. I’m not only in love, i am also in love with being in love. I live to love, i give what i can’t have.

BPD love means favourite person. Building a whole world around one person and living in this world with them ; that’s how it’s supposed to be. In reality, we can’t tear apart people from their world to make them live in our world. That’s why bpd love can be toxic.
Having a fav person is also a way to alienate the fear of abandonment. This fear can lead one to be obsessive and jealous. It can also lead to threats and rudeness because of an angry mood.

My mood is pretty fucked up. I have manic and depressive episodes, similarly to my bipolar diagnosis. They are more intense, but don’t last as long as the bipolar ones. Sometimes, i feel empty and it can worry my S.O. or make them think i lost interest in them when in reality i’m just disconnected and i need some time. I am also impulsive